Grimalkina

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Despite being a fully relatively functional working person, a person who’s doing just fine, who got a PhD, who really has a great pretty good sense of herself, who values learning, who praises effort, who, god dammit, is literally an expert in how and why people learn new skills—despite all of this, I cannot think of a single new thing I have started learning without having to battle this persistent, pervasive, persecuting voice.

Not a single thing.

Whether it’s taking baby steps towards coding this summer, or working on my creative writing, or trying a new photography project, or launching a new experiment or running a new statistical analysis.

And after all this time I have no magical solution to this voice. After all this time, I usually believe it. But I can shrug, and decide that sucking at something is not a reason to stop doing it.

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